IT'S TIME TO WAKE UP NEO..... IT'S TIME

 

 

 

There are a few things that have been happening over the past months and particularly in the previous few weeks. The irritability has been building about any little thing that usually doesn't move me or bother me or that I can usually just let go with ease and even just ignore. This irritability has even been at the irritability itself. I have felt even in the busyness of life a lost feeling and sort of emptiness that I was thinking was bad and my fault and not at all how I should be feeling. Be thankful woman - be grateful - you are not allowed to feel this way. Lost - blah - just complaining and whinging. I have felt an overwhelming need to stop and adjust and realign my life - to set goals and new directions. I have felt out of control in many ways because every plan I have made for the past 6 months or so has just melted away and I have known in my heart - in the knowingness - that these events would not unfold or not occur as planned. The final two have happened this week with a cancelled camping trip and then a postponed road trip to my son's for a visit. Neither surprise me and in many ways I just knew. But the thing is that I constantly have had plans not align now for so long that I am adverse to making any plans at all. And finally I have seen synchronicity after synchronicity confirm everything that is happening is happening in the correct way. There is confirmation constantly around me.

This morning was absolute confirmation that I am exactly where I am meant to be and doing exactly what I am meant to be doing right now.

I caught myself standing in front of an open fridge this morning - holding the door open and staring into the void thinking - why am I so irritable, what's wrong with me, I feel like I have to start over and go back to basics, do we constantly have to redo everything we learn, what's happening to me and on and on. I close the fridge make a cup of tea and sat down  to write in my journal but remembered a saved article on Facebook and I have A KNOWING that this article is be read and taken in NOW! The biggest synchronicity - the complete answer to all of my questions to the food in my fridge.

The article below -
CAN YOU FEEL IT - 5 SIGNS YOU ARE ABOUT TO UNDERGO A LIFE CHANGING SHIFT.

http://thespiritscience.net/2016/04/25/can-you-feel-it-5-signs-youre-about-to-undergo-a-life-changing-shift/

Well tick number one. Irritable - yes - even irritable at my irritability.

Tick of number two.  Lost, directionless, desire less, emptiness.... yes to all of these feeling even in the midst of life's joys and busyness. According to this article this is when your soul speaks and mine has been clearly calling to me. I have even been led to do a meditation by Dr. Barbara De Angelis called The Knowingness In Your Heart (see link below to listen on You Tube)

https://youtu.be/a7J808de-CI

I have noticed though that even in the midst of these feelings and emotions I have a clarity in my mind that is surprisingly clear and I have been able to find peace and calm even in the noises around me. I also have noticed this with my body as I recently said to my naturopath that even though the body was in more pain that my mind was so clear and concise that it was scary at times.

Tick to number three as I just purchased my yearly journal from cupcakes and cauldrons and have set aside the next few days to plan and give thought to the direction of my life and what I wish to focus on.

Tick to number four because I have come to the place where I seriously do not feel I want to make a plan of any sort at the moment. I know in my heart that right now I am to flow and allowing the universe to do what needs to be done to align me with where I am meant to be and align me with what I am meant to be doing. I also have learnt through these experiences to listen to my intuition - to trust myself and even if the direction I am being given seems out of whack with what I want or others want from me that this is okay. TRUST myself. I knew these things were not going to pan out the way that was being planned but I insisted on setting dates.

And finally tick of number five. This whole entire article was a synchronistic - an INSTANT ANSWER to my questions into the void of my fridge and how absolutely AMAZING this is. There are so many synchronicities that are to many to mention but the final one is the words "IT IS TIME". I read these words  the other day in an article from the Nicole on her blog Cauldrons and Cupcakes (see link below)

https://cauldronsandcupcakes.com/2016/12/16/what-are-you-ready-to-give-up/

and the same words have come up many times. They were the final words in this article. IT'S TIME TO WAKE UP NEO.....

IT'S TIME Wendy....

WOMAN - inspiration and blessing

Today is Monday. Every second Monday I am invited to attend a meditation with my friend Jillian at

Forest View Wellness Spa

I had such an inspirational morning. There were 8 women including  Jillian and it was a very powerful joining of souls today. Being a woman is such a blessing. Jillian gave some teachings she felt to share and then guided us through a meditation. It was such a powerful meditation for me today and I felt so relaxed and clear and balanced. I shared with the group of women who were there today that I realize that I have been prone to holding other women at arms length. I have been like that with males and females but today I am talking about women and my relationship to them. I am sure many times I have missed out on some precious learning or support because of holding other women at arms length. I have realised that I have been holding back what gifts and support to other women that I have to give. I was listening and realised that I could so relate to what one would mention and then in turn I realised that I could share.

This was all being written into my journal but today I am listening to the inner voice and writing it on here to share. Whoever is meant to read this will. Jillian spoke about being true to ourselves as women and briefly about the history of women and the suppression of women through the ages. The teaching was to say - hey you are a woman and integral in your own right and deserving of love and nuture and not to just give these abundantly as we do as women but to receive these blessings as well.

The sharing was palpable. The caring was real. The support was balanced and honest. I am so thankful to this day and to my ability to see these blessings. I am so thankful of not just the opportunities given to me but for my ability to share as well.

It feels really good to be part of a group of women. I have spent so long standing on the edge and looking in. I have spent so long not thinking I am worthy or good enough. That I didn't have anything to input worth value and the thought of why would anyone want to learn from me? Why would anyone want to listen to me? I realise that this sounds melodramatic but it is true. Self doubt. Fear of saying the wrong thing. Fear of not wanting to big note myself. Fear that others will think I am just to big for my boots. Doubt that anyone would actually listen to me because I am not perfect and I haven't got it all together. A belief that you have to have it all together before you can do anything. The list could go on and on.



But I have knowledge - such life experiences and I geniuinely do not wish anyone ill will. I have usually saved the bitter comments for myself. I have always treated others with more respect than I have given myself.

So it was a very apt topic today at meditation. Women receive. Women receive the friendship and help. Women assist and support each other. That it is okay to look after yourself. To give yourself space and a little time out.

I do not want to buy into the men hating theme. I love men and admire what they can achieve and be and do. There is just some things that men do that I have absolutely no interest in and that's me. I believe if there was something that a man does and I want to learn and participate then I should and that goes the exact opposite way back to men being allowed and encouraged to do things that are often perceived as a womans role.

I had a few wines and discussed my views with my daughter the other night and I am sure she was thinking - I don't agree with Mum. But it was so good for someone to just let me talk it all out because really I needed to get the words out and clear my mind.  I needed a lot of words and she gave me the gift of listening and giving me her opinion back and I am so thankful. I do not need to go into that here. The point is that I learnt and I grew. We often say something and then when we learn differently or view something from anothers perspective and change our ways we often give ourselves a hard time and flog ourselves. And we say that why would anyone listen to us now. We have changed our views - we look like a hypocrite etc etc. But the truth is that that is growth. That is wonderful and amazing and such a gift. To grow and expand and learn and change and come out of our cocoon.

So today has been special for me. I am going to finish this post of and try and just allow myself the time and space to paint tonight. Art group tomorrow and a lesson from Val McIntosh. Photos to follow. Thanks for listening.

Here is the link to this years. Hay House World Summit 2015   I have listened to three interviews so far and am so very grateful for these teachings to be made available for everyone. Just sign up with your email address and then allow the Universe to guide you to what is best for you and your journey and growth.

And here is a link to one of my favourite speakers and poets
Kute Blackson Blog - I Love You Mother - The Beauty Of Woman


Blessing, Peace and Love

from Wendy

The Opposite to Lack Is ABUNDANCE

This is our cat Jimmy Beam  "it's all to much"

 

 

Whatever we think and FEEL is always a match to what we are manifesting in our lives. If I look around at my life I see this principal in action. I have not always seen it. I have not always understood it. I think it is something we never fully learn and will constantly be pursuing in our human lives.



The law of attraction makes so much more sense to me when viewed from FEELINGS - how we feel is the quickest and simplest way to work out if we are aligned with our Soul. That's the way I look at things. So if I have a sickening feeling in my stomach then I know that I am not aligned with my Soul. My Soul wants to feel Joy and Peace and Calm. I am learning to use those feelings to direct me. Then I consciously choose a better feeling thought and then a better feeling thought. I can move from the unease to ease one step at a time.  This has come from different sources over time for me to learn but the book I have finished reading recently and was loaned to me by my naturopath is the book that really got this into my thinking pattern and to consciously attempt to move through those feelings is The Amazing Power of Deliberate Intent - living the Art of Allowing by Esther and jerry Hicks. I have been lent some CD's to listen to and this book. See their website here if you want to explore more.  Abraham Hicks Law Of Attraction

I have mentioned before that I tend to close of my feelings. Shut them down. It is just a learned behaviour that I have used in the past - not necessarily the best behaviour but what I learnt and used to deal with things in my past -  but I am daily working on exploring and more than anything just acknowledging my emotions and feelings. We have been taught over time in our society that to express our emotions is bad. Even laughing to loud or to hard can upset some people. I heard a man laughing so very loud outside a shop the other day. I was in the shop and I just stopped and listened and let his laughter give me a smile from ear to ear. Then another customer noticed and we both agreed that it was nice to hear laughter and not anger or complaining or such.


I had an "Aha" moment on the way to town yesterday. It all ties into what I have just been talking about.

I thought about something I said to Mick this morning.  Actually it was about a few subjects and it struck me as I was saying my affirmations while driving that I was basing all my thoughts about so many things on the premise of LACK. Lack. Lack. lack.


I realised just as I have been shown that one of my limiting core beliefs has been shame then lack is another one. Lack is something that came up weeks - possibly months ago but I only just put two and two together. I have realised that I base my whole life around lack. So very interesting. I would not have thought that I was extremely poor because I know that others have been so much less of than me but I also acknowledge that I didn't come from a wealthy family. I have carried this core belief for as long as I remember.

And I thought of abundance and realised that abundance can be not just money but joy, laughter, health, relationships, friendships, sex, love, work, family etc....

The opposite to lack is ABUNDANCE

The opposite to poverty is PROSPERITY.

So I will ponder these thoughts and add what I learn as I go.



On another note I receive updates and newsletters from Dr. Lissa Rankin who I have mentioned before. I would very much like to share something she has written because it is so very well written and expressed and I think it would benefit everyone to read through this and really take it on board in their lives.


Dr. Lissa Rankin - A Call to Greater Compassion




Love to you all,
Cheers
Wendy

The Opposite of Shame is PRIDE and HONOUR and RESPECT

Painting I did my friend for Christmas gift. I had not posted a photo. First time I did an acrylic painting like this. The back ground is ink. I loved the background.

Water colour - first water colours I have ever done. I really enjoyed doing these paintings.

Not perfect but I like this - camping on the beach and looking towards Noosa....

 

This is water colour pencils - this is the first time I had ever attempted to draw/paint the ocean and the waves...

 

 

Where to start...

Well its been a few days. Up to day 7 to be precise. Pleased to say that I have so far kept up my 21 day challenge for doing one thing - lemon juice every morning in glass of warm water. I have also taken to putting the remainder of the lemon juice into a jug of water and drinking that throughout the day as well.

I have meditated each day except one. AND what a difference this makes. I enjoy a relaxation meditation more than a visualisation type meditation. I cant quite do unicorns and fairies and things. I even struggle with waterfalls and long walks through forests. It just does not work for me. In saying that I have come across a meditation from Dr. Lissa Rankin (more on her later). It is healing mediation and quite interesting coming from a doctor as she really gets into the body parts and healing. I enjoy that. And the best thing is that I feel absolutely great afterwards and can feel the healing warmth throughout my body.

My favourite though is a meditation I did with Jillian at the Bauple Spiritual Centre. I got a copy of that of her and it is what resonates with me so strongly at the moment. I am listening to this for a second time while I write. THETA meditation. I love this. No talking. I just say to myself on each inhalation and exhalation. Peace. Calm. Love. Healing. Joy. Health. Healing. Yesterday as I sat there for half an hour I actually felt like I was flying/soaring above mountains full of dense forest. So green and lush. It was such an amazing feeling and I couldn't help but smile. Huge smile with no one else around. I started to stop myself and then I just went with it and the smile got bigger and bigger and I could feel my face pulling tight and then I actually laughed out loud. That was cool. Something that has never happened before. I felt JOY. My hands were resting on my legs and I actually could not feel where my hands started and my leg began. The only other time I have felt that is when I have been in a Float Tank.

The thing with this meditation is that it really helps my body relax and the pain of arthritis seriously eases. It works for me. I know this.

Yesterday was such a slow day. I awoke today feeling a bit out of wack. I am not sure how to put this. After lemon juice daily and green juice as well over the past few days and less coffee and lots of water, I would say it is a detoxing. Took me a few hours to work it out. So I am being kind to my body and going with the flow. I have not done to much. I have spent most of the day just studying and writing in my journal.... listening to my Soul and the Universe.... making good food, taking a nap.

A few days ago I signed up for Dr. Lissa Rankin 40 Day Whole Health Challenge. Mondays email came through and the days challenge was to join a group/community. Then I remembered that Monday night is meditation night at the Bauple Spiritual Centre. I can be so stand offish and I put so many barriers up and glass walls etc. So Mondays challenge to myself was to let those guards down. Not run late. Be there early. Be prepared to talk and not hide behind my barriers. Listen and learn from everyone there attending and just enjoy and go with the flow of being with other like minded and open minded people. Definitely not get hung up on words. We all use different words for the same thing. I use Universe for God. I use Soul for Spirit or Intuition or Inner Pilot Light that covers the invisible part of me.

This 40 Day Whole Health Challenge had a recorded session in the first day to listen to. I will go into this more each day but today the main thing I want to share is that over the past weeks and months the Universe and my Soul have led me to explore and be aware of my self limiting beliefs. To explore what they are and to get a handle on what they are. I have asked for help and guidance. Today as I was listening to this recorded lecture the audience - me - was asked to close my eyes and go back to to myself as a child about 7 years of age or so. Then to ask that child what hurt you? What happened to give you that belief about yourself and the world? Then we were to think immediately of the first word or phrase that came to our minds without interpreting it. Write it down. At first I had a thought about a happy bike riding along the streets outside our home. Nothing came to mind immediately of anything bad. My first reaction was as usual to say in my mind that that's a lot of hogwash. Nothing bad happened to me. Then I remembered. I can even remember the teachers name. Mr. Tricket. I was in Grade 3. Early on in the school year. I have no idea to this day why or how I took it but I had taken a new notebook of another girl and taken it home and covered it in alfoil. Of all things alfoil. I don't even know where that idea would have come from. Anyway the teacher pulled me up in front of the whole class and called me a thief and made me cry and sit in front of the whole class as a theif and lier. I didn't steal. I don't steal now. I abore theft. I cant actually understand why I did it at the time but the bottom line is that it definitely was not handled in a loving and teaching manner. But do you know what - the word that comes to my mind immediately then is SHAME. She explains that this word sums up one of my inner beliefs about myself and how I relate in this world.

And this is so very correct. My whole life has been about shame.

The next thing we are encouraged to do is to find the exact opposite of what our word or phrase is.

For me the opposite of shame is PRIDE and HONOUR and RESPECT.

My whole life has been a struggle with accepting when I do something well. Pride has always been something that I will show to others but never to myself. All those words in my head about not being good enough, dont get a big head wendy, don't say to much because I don't want others to think I am big headed..... my goodness.... such a lot of words and thoughts.

So that is what I have been pondering the past few days.

I will be back again tomorrow.... thanks for listening...


This is the creek at the back of our property on the boundary. Was dry and hardly any water a week or two ago. After some lovely rain it was flowing beautifully again..






And the dam is full. Took only two days and 200mm of rain to fill it. It was just a puddle of mud in the bottom. We are so lucky to have the run of into this dam that we do. I will take some photos of how green everything is turning. You can see from this photo how very brown everything was....





AND FURTHER READING IF YOU INTERESTED - This is an email seen to me and I copied and paste it here - just though this little email was quite thought provoking....


Experience of a man who worked in Sweden detailed here vividly:
"It's been 18 years since I joined Volvo, a Swedish company. Working for them has proven to be an interesting experience.

Any project here takes 2 years to be finalised, even if the idea is simple and brilliant. It's a rule.

Globalized processes have caused in us (all over the world) a general sense of searching for immediate results. Therefore, we have come to possess a need to see immediate results. This contrasts greatly with the slow movements of the Swedish.

They, on the other hand, debate, debate, debate, hold x quantity of meetings and work with a slowdown scheme. At the end, this always yields better results.
1. Sweden has 2 million inhabitants. 
2. Stockholm has 500,000 people.
3. Volvo, Escania, Ericsson, Electrolux, are some of its renowned companies. Volvo even supplies NASA.

The first time I was in Sweden, one of my colleagues picked me up at the hotel every morning. It was September, bit cold and snowy.

We would arrive early at the company and he would park far away from the entrance (2000 employees arrive in their car to work).

The first day, I didn't say anything, neither the second or third days. One morning I asked him, "Do you have a fixed parking space? I've noticed we park far from the entrance even when there are no other cars in the lot."

To which he replied, "Since we're here early we'll have time to walk, don't you think that whoever gets in late will need a place closer to the door?" Imagine my face.

Nowadays, there's a movement in Europe named Slow Food. This movement establishes that people should eat and drink slowly, with enough time to taste their food, spend time with the family, friends, without rushing. Slow Food is against its counterpart, Fast Food and what it stands for as a lifestyle. Slow Food is the basis for a bigger movement called Slow Europe, as mentioned by Business Week.

Basically, the movement questions the sense of "hurry" and "craziness" generated by globalization, fuelled by the desire of "having in quantity" (life status) versus "having with quality", "life quality" or the "quality of being".French people, even though they work 35 hours per week, are more productive than Americans or British. Germans have established 28.8 hour work weeks and have seen their productivity driven up by 20%..

This slow attitude has come to the notice of USA, the pupils of the fast and "do it now" brigade. This no-rush attitude doesn't represent doing less or having a lower productivity. It means working and doing things with greater quality, productivity, perfection, with attention to detail and less stress. It means re-establishing family values, friends, free and leisure time. Taking the "now", present and concrete, versus the "global", undefined and anonymous. It means taking humans' essential values, the simplicity of living. It stands for a less coercive work environment, more happy, lighter and more productive work place where humans enjoy doing what they know best how to do.

It's time to stop and think on how companies need to develop serious quality with no-rush that will increase productivity and the quality of products and services, without losing the essence.

In the movie, "Scent of a Woman", there's a scene where Al Pacino asks a girl to dance and she replies, "I can't, my boyfriend will be here any minute now." To which Al Pacino responds, "A life is lived in an instant." Then they dance the tango!

Many of us live our lives running behind time, but we only reach it when we die of a heart attack or in a car accident rushing to be on time. Others are so anxious to live for the future that they forget to live the present, which is the only time that truly exists.We all have equal time throughout the world. No one has more or less. The difference lies in how each one of us does with our time. We need to live each moment. As John Lennon said, "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans."
Congratulations for reading this email till the end of this message. There are many who will have stopped in the middle so as not to waste time in this "Globalized" world.--Life

HOW IT STARTED (or continued with me finally noticing)

ANGER

Last week something did not go as I had planned. Out of the blue I went to react like I may have only a few short months ago. And then I felt calm. The reaction just went away and washed over me. Disappeared.  Vanished.  It made me laugh. I was so surprised and I said to my husband. Well that was just pretend. I am not even actually angry.... just reacting in an old way. It felt wonderful. And then I knew that I was growing. Growing in spirit.

Today though I did get angry and voiced my opinion to someone on the phone. But then something happened during and afterwards. I said my piece and while saying what I thought I actually caught myself thinking of what to say and to actually let something stop before I said it. Then afterwards I let it go. I truly did not get myself riled up and carry on with it. I said what I said. I dealt with what needed to be dealt with and then BAM it was gone. So very different to what I used to be like.

So very different.....

 

 

THOSE OVER WHELMING LISTS

 I WRITE LISTS.... lists of what I want to do, should be doing, wish I was doing and planning on doing. Oh those lists - they suck up my time and energy and lure me into a false sense of achievement. I think I may have written the last one. It's like an addiction. Such a habit.

Today journal writing is a clear message to me from the Universe to stop trying to do everything at once. I need to build momentum. The ripple effect from small achievements. So even though this is not new to me in learning it is fairly new to me in activity. Do one thing. Do it every day for 21 days. Then keep going with that one thing and add another activity. Do that for 21 days along with the original activity and then again another one for another 21 days. Basically a 21 day cycle of incorporating new and welcome habits into my life. 

I try to do all things at once. It is my usual way of over loading myself and over whelming myself. Then I have to work quite hard at convincing myself that I am okay and that I am not a failure. As it is said, the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result. Not going to happen.

So today was day 1 of 21 days of two new habits I want to incorporate into my life. I will start my day each morning before anything else with a glass of warm water with lemon juice in it. The second one is to meditate for 20 minutes a day. Both done today....

HOW IT STARTED (or continued with me finally noticing)

My real journey started about 7 months ago with a commitment to speak out loud and write down a set of affirmations every day for 21 days. This came about through a card reading of which I had never in my life ever done before. I am extremely dubious and cautious when it comes to this and was surprised when a counselling session became this. I decided on the spot to go with it. I was fairly reserved, though I found the lady I was with to just feel right to me. Pages of pages of notes were taken by her while she talked and went through the cards that I had chosen. What was said to me that day was EXACTLY what had been consistently coming up in my life, over and over again. The same messages, the same guidance. Synchronicity, Intuition, Guidance or whatever word you use, it was very very real and moved me to action.

21 days later I was changed. I have not stopped growing since. I would say it was The Shift in my life as Dr. Wayne Dyer would say. Dr. Wayne W Dyer - The Shift I will write more on this movie another time. I had not watched this movie at this stage.

I spoke these affirmations out loud in front of the mirror every day. I spoke them out loud as I drove my car. I just constantly kept coming back to them when other things in my thoughts felt ill at ease and not nice. I wrote them down in my journal every day for 21 days seven times each. I even sat up one night and did this after a late night out because I wanted to do this correctly and honestly.

Well they worked. They worked. They worked.

These are the affirmations I used in those first 21 days. They changed words after this 21 days as I understood more and moved forward. My current affirmations are not quite so long. I asked the Universe for guidance when choosing what needed to be affirmed in my life at this stage.

" I am willing to change.
I approve of myself.
I approve of myself and how I am changing."

"I am willing to release the need to be unworthy.
I am worthy of the very best in life,
and I lovingly allow myself to accept it.
I am worthy of all good things including success."

"I am highly creative and I trust in my creativity given to me by God.
I am an artist and a writer and a poet.
I am a teacher.
I am a healer."

"I am willing to release the need to be serious all of the time.
I have a wonderful sense of humour.
I laugh often.
I am playful.
I enjoy my life.
I am thankful and grateful for every breath I take."

"I am special and unique.
I am magnificent. I am caring and understanding.
It's okay for me to be myself.
I am perfect the way I am.
It's okay to be me. I am good enough."

"I am focused and always finish what I start.
I am capable and knowledgeable.
I am intelligent, smart and clever.
I am good enough."

"I am totally open and receptive to the abundant flow of prosperity that the Universe offers.
 I am worthy of abundance in my life.
I am deserving of abundance and I receive abundance in my life.
All my needs and desires are met before I even ask."

 

Thanks for reading and leave a comment if you feel so inclined. Discussions are good.

Cheers,

Wendy