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Wednesday, March 26, 2014

HOW IT STARTED (or continued with me finally noticing)


Last week something did not go as I had planned. Out of the blue I went to react like I may have only a few short months ago. And then I felt calm. The reaction just went away and washed over me. Disappeared.  Vanished.  It made me laugh. I was so surprised and I said to my husband. Well that was just pretend. I am not even actually angry.... just reacting in an old way. It felt wonderful. And then I knew that I was growing. Growing in spirit.

Today though I did get angry and voiced my opinion to someone on the phone. But then something happened during and afterwards. I said my piece and while saying what I thought I actually caught myself thinking of what to say and to actually let something stop before I said it. Then afterwards I let it go. I truly did not get myself riled up and carry on with it. I said what I said. I dealt with what needed to be dealt with and then BAM it was gone. So very different to what I used to be like.

So very different.....



 I WRITE LISTS.... lists of what I want to do, should be doing, wish I was doing and planning on doing. Oh those lists - they suck up my time and energy and lure me into a false sense of achievement. I think I may have written the last one. It's like an addiction. Such a habit.

Today journal writing is a clear message to me from the Universe to stop trying to do everything at once. I need to build momentum. The ripple effect from small achievements. So even though this is not new to me in learning it is fairly new to me in activity. Do one thing. Do it every day for 21 days. Then keep going with that one thing and add another activity. Do that for 21 days along with the original activity and then again another one for another 21 days. Basically a 21 day cycle of incorporating new and welcome habits into my life. 

I try to do all things at once. It is my usual way of over loading myself and over whelming myself. Then I have to work quite hard at convincing myself that I am okay and that I am not a failure. As it is said, the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result. Not going to happen.

So today was day 1 of 21 days of two new habits I want to incorporate into my life. I will start my day each morning before anything else with a glass of warm water with lemon juice in it. The second one is to meditate for 20 minutes a day. Both done today....

HOW IT STARTED (or continued with me finally noticing)

My real journey started about 7 months ago with a commitment to speak out loud and write down a set of affirmations every day for 21 days. This came about through a card reading of which I had never in my life ever done before. I am extremely dubious and cautious when it comes to this and was surprised when a counselling session became this. I decided on the spot to go with it. I was fairly reserved, though I found the lady I was with to just feel right to me. Pages of pages of notes were taken by her while she talked and went through the cards that I had chosen. What was said to me that day was EXACTLY what had been consistently coming up in my life, over and over again. The same messages, the same guidance. Synchronicity, Intuition, Guidance or whatever word you use, it was very very real and moved me to action.

21 days later I was changed. I have not stopped growing since. I would say it was The Shift in my life as Dr. Wayne Dyer would say. Dr. Wayne W Dyer - The Shift I will write more on this movie another time. I had not watched this movie at this stage.

I spoke these affirmations out loud in front of the mirror every day. I spoke them out loud as I drove my car. I just constantly kept coming back to them when other things in my thoughts felt ill at ease and not nice. I wrote them down in my journal every day for 21 days seven times each. I even sat up one night and did this after a late night out because I wanted to do this correctly and honestly.

Well they worked. They worked. They worked.

These are the affirmations I used in those first 21 days. They changed words after this 21 days as I understood more and moved forward. My current affirmations are not quite so long. I asked the Universe for guidance when choosing what needed to be affirmed in my life at this stage.

" I am willing to change.
I approve of myself.
I approve of myself and how I am changing."

"I am willing to release the need to be unworthy.
I am worthy of the very best in life,
and I lovingly allow myself to accept it.
I am worthy of all good things including success."

"I am highly creative and I trust in my creativity given to me by God.
I am an artist and a writer and a poet.
I am a teacher.
I am a healer."

"I am willing to release the need to be serious all of the time.
I have a wonderful sense of humour.
I laugh often.
I am playful.
I enjoy my life.
I am thankful and grateful for every breath I take."

"I am special and unique.
I am magnificent. I am caring and understanding.
It's okay for me to be myself.
I am perfect the way I am.
It's okay to be me. I am good enough."

"I am focused and always finish what I start.
I am capable and knowledgeable.
I am intelligent, smart and clever.
I am good enough."

"I am totally open and receptive to the abundant flow of prosperity that the Universe offers.
 I am worthy of abundance in my life.
I am deserving of abundance and I receive abundance in my life.
All my needs and desires are met before I even ask."

Thanks for reading and leave a comment if you feel so inclined. Discussions are good.

Wednesday, March 12, 2014


A rest in a shady spot at the golf course

I wanted to write again - I think (know) I  am ready. The problem is I did not know exactly which angle I wanted  to take. And should there be an angle?  Can I just write each day about what was the most important thing that happened that day?  Can I write about what was the most inspiring thing that happened that day? Can I write about my health and healing journey - my relationships - my parenting - my friendships - my garden - my choices - my beliefs - my world view - changes in my world view - my self talk - my life journey?  Maybe there is similarities in your life and you will find a connection. Maybe not. Maybe I just need to write for me - a part of my healing and journey in this life. All I know is that I want to write. I want to be honest. I want to share. I read so many of other peoples words and I am constantly moved and inspired and sometimes angered and often challenged. The people that write these words that have these effects on me do not even know most of the time. If I can leave a comment I do. Even if it is just one or two words.

So I have changed the name of my blog to reflect this change. This blog also will ultimately require a new name anyway as we have our house on the market and will be moving away from Bauple. Well that's the intention but in letting things take their course and going with the flow I actually have no idea at all how long we will be in Bauple.

The synconicty in each day - the flow - the messages from the Universe. The direction I am going and the forks in the road and the twists and turns. Wow is all I can say. I have been keeping a journal for about 6 months now. That is what I want to share. I have kept a journal before in my life but I am now going to name what I used to write as a diary, not a journal. My journal now is a conversation with myself and the Universe and with Life itself.

I will be sharing my photography.....

Our holiday pool where we stayed in January this year.

A local bridge that is over 100 years old. Hard to believe but the Mary River underneath this bridge comes right up to the top - just under the road - it would be amazing to see.

Frangipani flowers in my garden

Home Grown Bananas

Home Grown Paw Paw
I find enjoyment and satisfaction when I pursue my mission to purchase less and less from the supermarkets and to make things for myself that I can. Not because I have to. But because I enjoy doing this and the little feeling of control and independence that this brings to me.  I love not entering the cleaning aisle - well not very often - just to pick up my sunlight soap and washing soda and up until now my dish washing liquid. I enjoy shopping at the local markets and whenever I can purchase what I need from independent shop owners and stall holders.

I just love the feeling I get when I make something myself. This is for so many reasons. One - I am not supporting big corporations - I know I have to purchase some ingredients but the rule of thumb is that those same basic ingredients can make quite a few different products. And two is the fact that I know what is in them as this is  so very important to me. So I imagine there will be sharing in this blog with regards to this topic as well.

I will be sharing recipes that work for me. You may like to try them. But generally I have to say that this side bar of recipe pages is going to be where I go to quickly to find my tried and true recipes without stressing all the time on what to cook. I love to try new recipes but I think we can complicate things so much. I aim to keep a few simple workable and yummy recipes that are my basis for meals and try new recipes when I can just enjoy cooking for the sake of enjoyment. I truly do like to cook and I get a real kick out of turning a few basic ingredients into a meal. More on this in the future.

I just made this lovely recipe with some peanuts, almonds and cashews.... We have visitors for the afternoon and evening and I thought some nuts were in order. They actually went down a treat and are soooo very good. These would make a lovely gift.

All Recipes - Chipotle Honey Roasted Peanuts

Diaries that I hand painted as Christmas gifts .

I will be sharing my creative side.... sewing, painting, photography, drawing

I will also be sharing poems I write or just my musings in this case

Look around. Take my time.
Try to focus on just one thing at a time.
Just relax.
Go with the flow.
Trust the universe. Trust myself.
Be very aware of my thoughts. They are creating my reality.
Its okay to just be me.
Set my intentions everyday.
Love. Love. Love.
Be quiet and be still. Listen. No need to give feedback all of the time.
Be aware of my perception of life. The world.
Its just my world viewed through my own rose coloured glasses.
But more than anything. Trust the Universe. All my needs and wants are met before I even ask.

TRUST THE UNIVERSE....dont sweat things. Dont sweat the small stuff.
Ask and Receive. Just accept that that once I have bought something to the attention of the Universe then it is taken care of. I seriously cant do much more than that. This is the message for the year so far and it keeps coming to me constantly. The synchronicity of it is amazing me.

So until tomorrow....