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Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Manifesting A Dream

We sat down for a coffee while doing some gardening and I looked up and noticed two trees growing through and over the power line coming to the house. Problem fixed now but I sure am glad that we noticed it and could cut it down safely before a storm knocked it over and ripped the lines from the house. Very Thankful.

We got home from our Christmas away and sat on our back step to have a cuppa and these two beautiful Kangaroos came to say hello. We have seen Mama since her baby was in the puch and they now come to visit as a pair. Baby is growing so quickly.

I just had to share this photo - I love it. This is my nephew and my grand daughter. Do they look like they share a secret. Even with 8 years betwen them they seem to just "get each other".
This photo just makes me smile.

Norman Vincent Peale

I was given a lovely book by my cousins Patti and Ron for Christmas. The Complete Pocket Positves. This verse was one I read this moring while having my morning cuppa. It made me really stop and think. I am in no way complaining about my life thus far but I realised quite profoundly how we often get what we subconsciously dream and crave for. My life thus far has been a maze of unseen roads and tracks that I have taken quite literally at random and with very little thought as to where I was actually headed. I seem to have been quite impulsive at times and have never had my feet firmly planted in the ground. I have often made plans and yes to some degree stuck to them but generally they are simple plans that are easy to achieve or larger plans and goals not yet achieved, if ever they will be. I just thought about how my life has had no real direction. I thought of goals and plans but ended up just drifting from one thing to the next.

Then it struck me very clearly that in many ways I have lived a dream. ALWAYS in the back of my head and in my inner heart I have craved the life of wandering. I even use that name as a user name often. Wanderer. I have over these many years quite often daydreamed about the wandering life. The gypsy life. Taking a fork in a road just to see where it ends up. No real set plan. Just travel around this amazing country of mine and just wander. My favorite weekend away is to just jump in the car and drive and just see where I end up. Who I will meet and talk to.

Somehow - and I am not sure how to explain it - but I think this dream has been manifesting itself in so many ways throughout my life.

I have changed this year past. I am more than capable of staying at home. Of staying put in one place. Of enjoying my own company and of always being able to find something to do which entertains me. I was giving up on my dream - my hidden desire to wander - and over the past year I have come to make a decision for myself. And that was that I was going. It may not be forever but it would be at least for 12 months. I may do this and then do it again. I do not know. All I know is that I am going to go. Since I have decided that that is it and that this will happen I have become more steady in my actual day to day life. I  often daydream a little about traveling but I feel calm and centred in the knowledge that it will happen and will happen within the next few years or so.

I am so glad that I was paying attention when this insight was shown to me this morning.


Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Take Time To Create

I have been busy finishing of all the Christmas presents. Only two more sleeps and we are of to Brisbane to spend a few days with family and friends.

First up - you just gotta try this recipe - sooooo easy and quick and super delicious. I found this recipe for Peanut Brittle on Liss's blog Frills In The Hills - 15-minute-microwave-peanut-brittle  I have just made two batchs of this and bottled the pieces up in old coffee and olive jar and decorated with piece of fabric on top and tadah - another 6 gifts to go along with all the other goodies I have made.

Photo is sideways and I am not sure why - anyway this is a gift wrapped in a beautiful scarf for my Aunty - I picked up a few gorgeous scarves at the op shop ($2 each) and they make the perfect wrapping paper is completely reusable.

Another photo to look at with your head tilted - I have made up a Christmas Bingo game to play on Christmas day. I have other things as well but my sticky beak brother reads this blog so I am not telling yet.

Just one of the basket of homemade goodies. Still got a few things to add to this basket but they are stored in the fridge until just before I give the gift.

Homemade cookies in a jar. These are choc chip and pecan. All the jars I find at the op shop. I just love some of the finds I make and I am recycling and giving something that can be used over and over again.

It is hard to see but this piece of bright fabric is something I picked up at the op shop for $1 and I turned it into a big tablecloth and because the colours are so bright I will take it down for Christmas dinner and maybe we can use it on Christmas day. On the chair is another couple of barrles of cookies - some homemade shortbread in there as well in the most beautiful jar and the large glass jar is filled with prunes in port for my Dad. Soooo Yummy.

Homemade spice rubs. I made quite an assortment of these.And again the little jars can be reused again.

Another gift wrapped in a scarf for my friend. The gift is an old carved wooden frame that I picked up from a garage sale and then I inserted a piece of gutter guard mesh. When hung on the wall you can hang your earrings on it and never have to search for just the right earring again. I have one hanging on my wall in my room beside my mirror.

Anyway I have had so much fun making all of these goodies and can't wait to hand out the gifts. I have so many more ideas for next year and the more I do this the more confident I get and the more organised.

I read this in a book the other day -
"If you are fuelled with predominantly female energy, then excercising you feminine energy can uplift and strengthen you.
Feminine energy strength is in Creation.
If you can make time in your life to CREATE, even a little, it excercises that feminine energy, and you will become spiritually strong, feel balanced and fulfilment and peace follows.
Take time to create... maybe paint, or draw, or sew, or write, or cook, or landscape, or build.
Find time to create and become strong in your feminine strength."
FEELING PEACE by Karen Sonter

and it just stuck a cord with me. I have been creating - learning to sew - cooking, paper craft, writing - and it feels good. It feels really good. And it feels right.

Cheer everyone,

Friday, December 3, 2010

Busy, Busy, Busy

This was taken in Maryborough on Thursday morning. Two streets are closed to traffic each and every Thursday from 7 to 2pm for a market to be held there. All the shops are still open and even though other things are sold it is the place to get your weekly fruit and vegetables. A lot of produce is fairly local and from Childers. Mostly sugar cane farms around here and not many food farmers. Anyway this building (as you can see if you click on the picture to enlarge) was established in 1908. Maryborough is a heritage listed town so it has a lot of old buildings like this one.

I have been busy making Christmas gifts. This is two pots bubbling away of Tomatoe Chutney. Yummy and very popular. It is back this year by popular demand and requests for more.

Chutney bottled and labelled and made to look pretty.

The little tags are made by me as well and the wording painted on.

I got home one day last week and Mick had put up this light shade in our bedroom. I had bought this 6 years ago at a market as a spur of the moment purchase and it has never been put up as it hangs low and is quite large. What a suprise to see it up and it looks just perfect in this room. It is not in the way at all because it is over the bed. It feels like I am in a geanies bottle when I am snuggled up in the bed and the light is so soft and relaxing. 

  When I was at the markets on Thursday I went into a stall that is put on by all the local craft people. How clever and imaginative some people are. I picked up a couple of little gifts for my Aunty for Christmas. She is 70 and I just know she will find the humour and clerness in these gifts. I am sure she hasn't seen them before as they are very original. The first one is this dish cloth horse. I love this so much.

The second thing I picked up was this awesome teatowel britches. I took a close up of the little verse attached (below). How very very clever is this.

Had to share this photo of my Dad's vegetable garden. He had new seedlings in and the days were hot so my Mum suggested he put an umbrella over them through the day. He scoffed at first but when his little seedlings were wilting away to nothing he thought he would give it a go. It works a treat and Mum thinks she is so clever.

This is my adorable Grandson Mason. He has just turned two and is adorable. I don't get to see him much but he is so much like his Dad when he was that age that is is like being in a time machine every time I am with him. I will be seeing him for the day on Christmas Eve.

This is just outside our back door. We have quite a few wallabies and kangaroos that visit our place for a feed. It is so green and lush here at the moment. We have not stopped getting rain all year. I heard today that here in Queensland we have had more rain in a year than has ever been recorded since records started being kept. All this and at the same time Australia has had it's 3 hottest years on record in the past three years. I have to say that the weather is wierd and it is very hard to get work done when your job is fixing gutters on houses.

These next two shots were taken on the weekend at Hervey Bay. We went to the waterfront for fish and chips on our anniversary. One year married on the weekend just gone.

Urangan Pier, Hervey Bay, Queensland, Australia

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Back in FLOW

The rooftops of ATHENS in Greece at Sunset

Today I spent more time organising. Tidying up. Sorting out.

The past year has been one of the hardest I have had in many ways for such a long long time.

I let it all catch up with me and get on top of me. I then had a bit of a AHA experience the other day. Basically I just had enough of whining and whinging and going backwards and generally just not being to happy with my lot in life. Just sick of everything feeling futile and hopeless.

It's my choice. I knew that. I didn't need to learn something new to know that I can change my life by changing my thoughts and my actions.

Much easier said than done.

One of the monastries at Kalambaka in Greece

But Mick was going away for work for a week and I realised I had the perfect opportunity to start some personal changes and spend some ime with me. So on Sunday afternoon he left and he is not back until Friday.

I have stopped smoking again. I am past the horrible day two. Been there and done that before. I have a big party at our place on Saturday night but there is always something on and always an excuse. It's the 3 month mark that has let me down the last two times I have stopped smoking. I am trying to prepare and plan ahead.

I am choosing to take some much neded advise from others in blogland and that is be kind to myself. Be a little selfish. Give myself the time and the energy that I would give to others. Oh what a learning curve.

Can you see the monastries built on top of the rock cliffs - amazing?

This week I said NO to something asked of me by my daughter. Just a simple request to meet her in town but it just didn't suit me because it was Monday and the first day of not smoking and I also had very little fuel. No is not an easy word for me unless it is saying No to myself and then that comes very easy.

I am practising YES on myself. I am having a bit of fun with myself.

Street in Myconos Greece. I just couldn't get enough of the white washed walls and pathed paths.

I have also on two occasions this past week listened to my son talk without giving any advise or trying to fix things. And to top it of when I had enough of listening I said I had to go and terminated the conversation. Sounds like a littel thing. HUGE for me is what it is. Son never actually asked me for anything. He was just talking but usually the Motherly Protective I Can Fix It All person steps in. Well not this time. Oh what a feeling. Letting it go. Letting it all go.

Concentrating on doing ALL I can about the things I can change and letting it GO with the stuff I have no control over.

I have been getting up and doing my yoga before breakfast and oh that makes me feel good. I actually gave myself a big hug yesterday which made me laugh out loud. That was cool.

Oh how I wish I was back there - I would return to Greece anyday.

I have realised that I am a bit anal and like things to have a place and be in their place so I can find what I want when I want it. I like things tidy. Not new news to me. My house was a mess, I mean dusty, cob webby messy. I fixed that up. All on top of it now and I will get back to cleaning the house everyday but deep cleaning - dusting etc one room a week. Easy to stay on top of.

I have half started projects all over the place. It frustrates me having things unfinished. I have decided to stop collecting information until I have sorted out what I have. I have decided to finish of the Christmas presents over the next two weeks and then after Christmas I will sort out one project a week at least and get all this other clutter under control. In the meantime everything has been put in it's own little neat pile. At least I know what I am looking for.

I have booked for my hair to be done a few days before Christmas.

I have saved my smoke money and I have it stashed away for when I see something I want. I actually couldn't think of anything I wanted at the moment. I may go for a nice massage and pedicure actually. It will only take me to the end of next week to have enough for that.

My favorite island - Santorina - this is Fira. I have a dream of going back here. I don't usually go back to someplace I have been but I think I would make the exception for Santorini. Not one picture can truly do it justice of how beautiful it is.

Anyway I just wanted to share that it feels good to getting back into FLOW.

I have been off course and feel like I have found my way back. Obviously not without some effort but it definately feels like a weight has lifted.

Love and Peace to you all,